So i thought that i would put down on paper some of my thoughts for next year.....I feel like i am constantly unsure of whats next for me???....This year really has been a year of discovering who i am and where i want to be. I'm not saying i have the answers to those questions, but I'm getting there!
So i came back from Mozambique last year expecting to go to Bethel the following September. I changed my mind about this about a million times and so in the mix were phone calls to photography schools, research into university, emails to Israel.....need i go on?? and then after a team from Bethel visited this April i decided to finish my application after all. I was offered a place.
Its funny how after you think you know what your doing God will throw (yet again!) something else into the mix. Again I'm left feeling like i don't know where my heart lies. So a couple of weekends ago i went to a conference run by Bath City Church. Its called Epidemic Life (and its AWESOME!!). Whilst i was there i found out about an internship one of their missionary families run. Its in Uganda!!!! I cant explain how much my heart got excited about this, and at the same time how much my head tried to ignore it, i don't think it can handle another place!! So my heart forces my head to look into this more. And all the while my head is slowly softening to the idea of this beautiful county i have suddenly fallen for. So what would Uganda involve?? It would involve me moving to Kampala for anything from 6 months to a year. I would be working with an organisation called Revelation Life. They work in the slums providing short and long term solutions to the deprivation there. Families in the slum live on less than £2 a week and so there is so much need for people to pour out love of these people. Revelation Life's vision is based on this scripture..... "A Father to the Fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in His holy dwelling, He sets the lonely into families....." Psalm 68.
I feel called to see the face of Jesus, and i know i will find him in Africa in the dirt with the families God is talking about in this scripture. Heidi Baker says "You can see Jesus in the eyes of the dying, the broken and the lost". Jesus' question is "Will you open your eyes? Tell me that you'll open your eyes". And my response is "YES", with everything that i am, even though I'm terrified i say YES. Not because of me, but because when Jesus asks i cant say no....
And so the application process begins....
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